A year ago today I was the mother of 2 healthy children. I weighed 266lbs. A year ago today was our daughters 1st grade Christmas concert. A year ago today I was in Brandon, being admitted to have major abdominal surgery. A year ago today I could not have imagined what would happen 365 days in the future.
I wasn’t able to watch that Christmas concert. (Kendall rocked it. Not even being a biased parent it is safe to say from the video and comments that she stole the show.) The Surgery changed me from a mother of 2 to a mother of 3!
In the past 365lbs I have rid my body of 60lbs of un wanted layers. In the last year I have read books, made plans and followed through with them. I have trained for a 5km, checked things off my bucket list, started a blog, stepped out of wondering and tried public speaking.
When I look back on the past year it amazes me. I feel like I have accomplished more in the past 12 months than in years before now.
When I look at my life the biggest question I have is why now? What happened that gave me the strength and courage to be…………….me.
Why did it take soooooo long, soooo much heart ache, so many failed attempts to get to the place I am now.
Truly the only thing that I figure is now is my time. That I could not be writing this now, had I not lived the 31 years before this day the way I did.
Wisdom is in the previous years. Experiences, appreciation for what we have now, is in each day, because a one point we had nothing.
Strength and confidence to be the wife, mother, and women I am meant to be in the world, comes from being broken, empty, lonely and lost.
My hope for the next year is more. More gratitude and awwww, more appreciation for how far I have come and more love for the people in my life.
If you are feeling broken, empty, lonely and lost………breath…….this time is building you, preparing you for the greatness that will come.
The only way to appreciate what we have is to take note of where we have been and what we have already accomplished.
Thank you for all that was…..and I look forward to what is to come.
In the past 365 days what has changed in your life?