I need a new house. Because when I get a new house, the house will be bigger and shinier. With the new bigger house, my home will be cleaner, I will be skinnier, I will be able to focus on my dreams, the children will be happier, and my husband will be at home more.
No pressure, new house.
Why am I waiting for my life to begin when we have a bigger house? A few short years ago we were homeless. My darling husband bartered with the kind owners of a bed and breakfast to let us stay there while he helped them with odd jobs and mechanical things. When my husband’s twin brother got married I got ready for the wedding in the washroom of the campground. The night of the wedding we slept in the back of a semi-truck (it was the most responsible thing to do and other people were tenting). But we actually did not have a home to go to. Our first daughter’s first house was the bed and breakfast. No pretty baby nursery, no family pictures on the walls. When ski season started we had to leave the B&B and from there we moved to a house the size of our current living room. A one bedroom, tiny house. No shower, crappy water. (I melted snow to wash my hair, and the neighbors would offer us their showers). And then I dreamed of having our own house.
Six years later we have a home, a beautiful view, three healthy, self-confident children. The year we spent with no home of our own was the hardest year of our marriage, and life. However, it was our life, and when I think of that time I smile, because we lived it and have the memories of that time. Turns out while I was waiting for my own home, I was living life.
Yes we want a new house. For now I am going to be thankful to have the one we are in. It’s bigger than the one we stayed in before. It’s just as clean as any other house we have lived in, not as tidy, but that’s because we have 3 kids, and we have stuff. Perhaps if I only eat salad and stop drinking wine I will be thinner. I am creating my right life now by sharing this blog and uplifting your spirits. I do not believe it is my job to make my children happy, however I am sure they are safe, well fed, loved and given plenty of opportunities to find joy in their day. As for my husband, he is on his own path and his desire to work so hard for his family and help his community is part of why I married him. And besides when he is home he makes the house seem smaller and less tidy :0
What do you NEED – but already have?